Trishna : A story of human emotions led by Betrayal

well this story is not a work of fiction. It is inspired by the true incidents in the life of some close to me. I can't answer this question that why did I decided to write on this , maybe I was having too much spare time :P.

Thanks to Shruti Saxena for suggesting me the alternative names , Thank you Shefali Gupta and Pranav Gupta for providing critics on the initial draft.
And a big thanks to source of support and motivation Suchi Mathur, I wouldn't have done this without the confidence that you showed in me.

Characters : Shashank  Narrator
Varun  Friend
Avantika  Friend’s Girlfriend
Anjali Shashank’s Girlfriend
(whatever is found within these is from me the writer Anshul)


Well this story is about a series of incidents that happened in the life of Shashank which shook him from within and taught him a lot about life , friends , love and trust.

Varun ki kahani , meri Zubaani (Story of the friend in my words) . Story starts on the day 3 of college , which was on the records the first interaction between me and Varun. Well, then I was a silent guy with a flavor of shyness in nature. One day, I find this guy walk up to me and say hello. Next day I find out that we work on the same project. As the time passed, we started gelling up well and we spent a lot of time together. He always had this girl Avantika around him. I found her quite unusual in the first meeting, thanks to the schooling background I had where girls were something forbidden. We didn’t had a chance to interact with any girls nor did I had any sister , who would have some girlfriend , with whom I can talk. Yeah it was a complete black out in terms of girls. But, she was nice, she too gelled up well with me soon. Three of us were like the wolves pack. People in the college gave us funny names, one which I still remember and enjoy was Ram , Sita and Hanuman ( guys , this name is copyrighted with me the writer , I just added this for flavor :P). Things were going on smooth, I was slowly turning into improved version of me and both Avantika and Varun were getting along well.

Towards the end of the pen-ultimate year of our graduation, Avantika and Varun started having issues. I don’t know why or what were the reasons exactly, but what could I remember is that towards the end of the day I could see them fighting ( when I say fighting , please don't play with your imaginative power and imagine HHH vs Trish from WWE, ;) ). You know what, I tried to play the peace maker role and shock absorber but , yes this is the first but in the story(Oye not Salman Butt of Pakistan). Every next morning they were back again together and happy. I always wondered did they have any reset buttons or they just pressed shift+delete on yesterday. Soon, I got used to these daily gags and I stopped interfering between them. But I never knew that these daily gags are getting stacked up somewhere.

Soon we had our campus placements. Varun and Avantika got through the first few companies. As far as I am concerned I wasn't selected in anyone of them. Yeah that is lame and lazy me for you. I waited for a few more companies and finally got stuck to TCS, and I am still figuring out was that good or bad, well for me and the company both. It is a two way process, right? After the placements we were like the Chutte Saand (loose bulls , :P) and we used to have fun with friends, juniors and freshmen. That was the first time when I saw her, her freshness , her smile bowled me over. Oyeeee , wait ... that is not the part I wanna discuss here. Well I discovered that Avantika and Varun are not going along well together. The daily gags were turning into stunts. Some of the stunts were really deadly and breathe taking. I was puzzled what has happened to these guys. I still tried to be peacemaker, but they were always stronger in their views and in end I had to leave it to them to decide.

College ended, everyone was preparing for joining the companies they were meant to. Avantika and Varun joined 4 months before me. I was at peace and harmony in my first ever relationship. I was located in Hyderabad. It was a lonely place with these three special people. It was just 12th day of my training when I learned that something unexpected has occurred. I was horrified by the impact of this. Avantika and Varun broke up. This was very painful and shocking for me. Varun told me that after joining company Avantika has completly changed. She spends more time with this new guy, she has told everyone that Varun is a hooligan ( I learned this term from my Ex-Project Manager, thank you sirji :) ). He has been chasing her since the very first day in company. Her acts became inappropriate and unacceptable. Even if she was getting away there should be a little bit patience before getting passionate for someone else. One fine day she came to him ,told him to take his white ass off her life completely, in short officially broke off with him and left him like a thirsty bird on a sunny day in desert. ( please don’t try and connect this to Pyar ka Punchnama .. though I too did tried to find relevance there ).

Mera kaandha aur rumaal ( My shoulder and tissue). I talked to my Varun every single day and tried to pacify him. I patiently listened to him, tried to make him comfortable and stable. He abandoned all normal activities and did something that I wish he should have never done. He tried to kick the steel solid ass of the new guy who was in Avantika's life. Things got very weird and finally his family decided to pull him off from that place, the job, and away from Avantika. Varun was devastated , completely shattered. He felt like rotten egg (I used rotten egg here coz I hate my chemistry teacher for making smell that rotten egg in Salt Analysis experiment in chemistry lab… grrrr x-( ) . I was finding it hard to help him, as I was away for my training. As they say “When there is will there is way”, ahha!! .One day my angel (my girl friend, not God's angel , stick to my plot , please) called me and told me that she is ready to help him. And yeah, to my surprise she did it , and my friend Varun was saved from a miserable life.

Hmm... sorry readers , I forgot that this story is about me and should , though I am still talking and am in the center . Friend's story went a bit long, isn’t it ? Yeah I know. But don’t worry , Avantika will not bother us anymore. Thank you, Avantika for your time. Well, as these things were going on , I was having everything smooth and silky at my side . I guess that is true, at least I still believe that . Never mind, It was time to visit home after 5 months of training. After 5 months I will see my angel, damm!!, she is so cute. I missed her so much.
Dilli ki Sardi aur meri aashqui (delhi winter and my love story) Rolling a little back. ( It meant in time , not on your couches and beds, you are so lazy, keep reading). We all were placed. As I mentioned earlier I improved and as well as I started interacting with girls. So one day , my friends were teasing these juniors to find out some details about them. I was in the corridor , when she came running to me, asking for the details. I was mesmerized by the childishness in her voice, the softness on her face. I gave her the details of my friend and she was so happy like she has found a treasure. She thanked me and went running. I followed her. She straight away went to my friend. There were other juniors too. I walked into the scene and I asked her to find about me. First she said No, but I don’t know why did she agreed. Well , that night I gave her all my details in the mail though. ( aww… Shashaank man you are no fun at all, I agree love makes you simply idiot ). That was the first interaction between me and Anjali. Yes, it is her name, cute name isn’t it. As expected , we started having conversations all over orkut (yeah , this dumb guy is still not on Facebook). Soon it came to SMS, then calls , then hanging out together. We had a cultural program in our college and I was in back stage management committee. As you can guess , I took her in my team. I started feeling for her ,yes a guy from a background where girls were forbidden was feeling for a girl. I don’t know why but she also had feelings for me.

Ye sham mere pyaar k naam ( raise a toast for my love) I had decided that I will ask her out. My classmates organized a party every year for class people. I thought that this was the right time. I forced them to open this party for all the college people. I invited her. Ahhh!! I had to pay for two people now and one time I was in no mood to pay for myself even. Its love ,so what budgets should be considered. ( I told you right this guy idiot, but he is stupid too). Anyways I arranged money and she came to the party. As I was not sure of what would be her reaction , so I executed my plan. I took her to a lonely place. I gave her a rose and a gift. I narrated in a very sexy style the lines that I wrote and practiced in my Nokia 5310 Express Music phone. I am not advertising Nokia, but I loved my first phone, it was so amazing. She took rose but refused the gift. That gift must still be with my friend who asked her to get his details.

Though she refused my proposal, but I never gave up. And yeah so did Varun. Varun was talking to her, trying to convince her about me. Boy oo boy, and he succeeded. She accepted me, though this acceptance came just before my last mid-term exam, which I screwed up in anxiety. Anyways, I was on Stratosphere, way above the cloud nine. ( I told you this guy is full of dumbness). I was living the dream.

Well readers the story begins now.

I went away for training in Hyderabad. I was missing my angel (Anjali) This was a very tough time for us. I was busy entire day in training and came to hostel in night. Thanks to the seriously tough management of TCS, who didn’t allowed us cell phones inside the training center, I just got nights. But this was the problem, she was at her home thus she couldn’t talk to me in night. All we got Saturday where she could spare some time from college and we could have call. I waited everyday for Saturday to come soon, and wished that Saturday never got over. ( ohh god , people go so dramatic when they are in a condition called love). Training got over , I went back to Delhi. I saw my angel she was so pretty. We talked and talked a lot. We also talked about Varun, who just had break up and was not well inside his head. I met Varun. He was in bad shape. I gave him some philosophy and some new motivation to start over his life again. It was time for me to move to move to a new place. The place is sometimes referred as New York of India , yes Amchi Mumbai. This is the place where I met this shitty writer.

Yeh dooriyan , inn raaho ki dooriyaan. ( being distance away from my love) We are away now for almost 4 months , I am dying to see her. I always believe that the text messages is not a good form to conversations. They don’t express the exact mood of the person you are talking to. Sometimes it happened that we got angry with each other just coz the exact emotions were not transferred. But , every next day came together, loving each other even more. Again I am mentioning that this is what I feel. Every time we had a concern, we resolved it and after that I loved her even more.

I am in love for more than an year now. It feels great to be with angel. Its July and soon Delhi will see rains. But these rains are bringing me no joy, coz my angel is not well. She is badly sick, and is in terrible pain. What a miserable feel it is , when you find the person whom you love the most in life is in severe pain and that too for a prolonged period . I can just listen to her pain and suffering which she is going through, but I can’t even hug her make her feel comfortable with the warmth of my body. This long duration of suffering has made her frustrated and pissed off, which is causing a lot of mood swings.
I don’t have any idea how to tackle this situation. I don’t know what to say and what to tell her on phone to make her comfortable. Her pain is still there, there is no sign of any relief with the medication that she is taking. She is physically very weak and fragile now. I have no idea of the extent that this has damaged her spirit, she is irritated. But one thing that is not happening is that she is also not speaking to me about this. She is avoiding any kind of communication with me on anything. I get no reply when I ask her about her health and also I don’t get any response when try to divert her focus from this mess.
What all I get is no response. I am unable to understand what she needs, what should I talk abt. Last time when I tried to fresh up her mood with some jokes I missed her genre big time and that resulted in almost death of the relationship. I am scared that last time I tried something and that didn’t work out which did so much harm to our relationship , but this time if I don’t do anything then also its going to result the same. Everyone is suggesting that I should try to be friend with her. I should just remind her that I am with her all the time and expect nothing. But I am losing my patience. I try hard to break the ice but she neither responding to it nor even considering my effort.( guys we have the second but, again it is no reference to Salman Butt).
You try to talk about everything that you can under this blue sky , like movies , friends , gossips, work , politics , even philosophy. But what you receive is a balance message from network operator and nothing else. The person you are trying to call or dropping message is either asleep or has made herself busy somewhere else that is of more interest to her than you and your idiotic chat. Your strength and your self belief are getting weak. And when you receive no response, they get weaker. But on other hand you also know that your love is having a very hard time and may or may not answer to you at all. You have no issues with this situation and you love her more with every second that pass.
There is one more vantage point to this scenario. Hold up your emotions for some time and vent them out after you finish reading this paragraph. Suddenly you realize that one of your close common friend who knows that she is suffering a lot reports to you that she is responding to him continuously and he is able to engage her and entertain her. Ahh , thank god she is talking. As I told you I believe in “when there is will there is a way”. She is responding to Varun. I am happy and feel a bit relieved. I feel content that at last someone is able to make her smile. But at the same time when I see myself in mirror, I know the reality and need to accept the truth and the fact that being in relationship also someone else is able to make her smile and not me. This is a very strong statement that I don’t understand her at all and I can’t even make her smile even and forget helping her pain. I feel that I am nothing but a piece of stinking shit. I feel that everyone is happy to deject me out of their lives. They just don’t need me, not even in good times and not even in bad times . I am not even comparable to a dustbin which takes all dirt and garbage to make people’s life clean and happy. What a shame for me that I can’t make her smile even, I am so bad at entertaining my love even. Do I even know her, whatever has happened has happened but that has made me realize that I am unemotional, I am just a body of muscle and bones with no feelings for no one.
This is nothing but the failure. Yes, yet another failure of mine. I had one failure before and this is the second time. I don’t know how it worked out last time, was I lucky that she stayed or she gave me a second chance. What I am feeling right now is that I don’t deserve her or any attention from her. When I should be the one who should be making her feel good, someone else has taken lead. I have realized that I am pathetic and irritating. I do not doubt her commitment but I doubt that will I be ever able to keep her happy and cheerful. Sometimes I wonder what kind of pressure or limitation did she had that she had to chose me and stay with me, when she knows that I may not be the best one for her.
I am happy that there is some relief to her misery by conversation with Varun. Thanks Varun for helping my angel. this time I got it very clear that I was never a good friend to her not even a person who understand what she wants and what she wants of me . Sometimes I doubt, I will never be able to treat her like princess which she deserves. Will it be good to slowly move out of her life and in such a way that she would never miss me.I’ll be a just a anonymous well wisher of her .

(Intermission, the above part of the story was in year 2010. Go have some popcorns and prepare yourself for the next half. The next half is the present time means November’2011. Well I should be preparing for myself for the Q2 releases but this crazy guy wants me to script. Damm I hate myself for giving him commitment. But the commitment came with unlimited beer and chicken , that was too tempting for me to resist.)

Ohhooo , wait a second you looser. I have read this for the second time and I guess after a very long time.( yes this drunk guy is serious he actually read this after a very long time, to be precise 8 months. (He is such a lazy bastard) Things have changed dramatically over the past 2 quarters. I can’t help this terminology, TCS has made me use this so often. What was I crying and feeling miserable for in the above paragraphs, actually has no relevance with me. Well to start with, due to my extensive mind blogging and research along with the connecting dots theory , I came to a conclusion that boy ohh boy I am mistaken a big time. What are am I crying for, that is have lost, was never mine. Well there is this new angle to this scene.
Scene 3, director’s cut :P.( I just wonder what can beer do with people, it made me come up with tag lines) Well let me take you a little back ( oye please don’t lay back on your sofa, he didn’t meant back on your sofa , and guys he is sentimental here , please behave :P ). Remember she was going through a very tough and rough time. She was miserable. As I told you anyone with such a prolonged exposure to pain can break, so did Anjali. This is what I think at least. Man I was trying a lot of things to cheer her up , to ease up her a pain little bit which eventually didn’t work. I tried to comfy her with messages, mail , calls and whatever that I could from Mumbai. I kept calling her , was always on message chat spoke on all the topics that she likes. But I too had some limitations, limitations that were imposed on me as a part of my job. I know keeping job at priority than your love is not acceptable. But sometimes the job demands more attention and it deserves that. So it was a Sunday , we had our production day. It was a big release and I couldn’t give her much time. I told her that this work will take a long and may carry on for the entire night. She said she was ok if I kept on messaging her. Well now you can connect it to Pyar ka Punchnama , I just missed a couple of her messages and just a few text later I got this “U prefer ur job over me , this is what u r , u will always do the same”. Man I knew the water is running over danger mark. (he he , I enjoyed the movie and I enjoy when this guy used to tensed on receiving any such messages from Anjali, he is such a pussy ). I tried to get back into the scene but I guess it was too late. After a couple of messages what I got was “You can finish your job, don’t bother about me , I got Varun to talk and take care of me”. Ohh God this message was serious it had no smilies you see. But then I got a message from Varun “ man , don’t worry I got her , I’ll keep her engaged”. Hmm.. did that just saved my ass or did that just shaved my ass , I am still figuring out. I was trying hard to make her happy and cheerful and all my efforts failed. But, whatever Varun did g was not even just helping her but also was considered amazing. He He , that was the first dot for you all. My efforts are worthless but his are precious to her. After she had been helping Varun to recover from his breakup , she was always concerned about Varun. Anjali was so much occupied with Varun that most of the times there was hardly anything to talk other than Varun. She always used to tell me that Varun is more caring and entertaining than me. Man, sometimes I think what the hell was I doing then , why didn’t I read some entertaining blogs so that I can entertain her. Well that battle is lost now. I was no more entertaining and cheerful and caring and concerned and … …and … and … . The list I guess never ends , that is a typically a girl’s list of disagreement , it has to be long.
Well after this production in my office happened and I had time to figure out what I did wrong that night, I couldn’t come up with anything. I just thought it was my fault. But, when I did connected the dots I came up with this. Again reading the following lines will prove that I am a rational fool. If she was in relationship with me , why will she discuss with him the so called tough time, that tough time details were very very personal with anyone or I should say Varun. How I figured this out ?? ahha , I recalled that Varun after the day of production, told me that he researched a lot on the problem that Anjali is going through. He did find few medications for her. Well instead of telling me about those medications, he tells me that the previous night they had a long chat and he has already told her this. Wow, when I was trying to talk , she was busy with Varun. Anjali discussed her problems with him which she couldn’t discuss with me. Am I that stupid or ignorant that she couldn’t discuss that with me. Ohh , I remember till now according to even myself too I am the bad guy all busy with my work. Well , guys that is the second dot, discussing ultra personal stuff with Varun and not me.
Before I continue just a quick question that came to my mind. Was I always that stupid and ignorant or it is something that everyone does when they are in love. ( I am sorry , I forgot to tell you that Shashank watches Ekta Kapoor’s shows, and that is why that line came up, such a TV addict)
Jab dost soch rah tha ( when Varun was planning) I can say that he planning this for a long time and I must congratulate him for an amazing execution. It never struck me what is he upto. Being in a distant relationship, continuing your relationship on the same note is never easy and you find more issues in your relation than in the Software that you are testing. Same happened with me and Anjali. Things were not shaping up well between us. Every time situation was getting out of control and I looked for assistance and help, if anyone I could find , than it was Varun. I stupidly went to my friend. Yeah I was dam stupid that I discussed with him the issues. I never gave him details what exactly the issue is. I always avoided the details and gave him a situation to solve, just to maintain the privacy of my relation. I call my stupid because when I was busy doing this data hiding of my relation at the same time he had complete knowledge of issue. The issues was already discussed with him by Anjali and she had already replied to her. He always knew that my relation is going through very high tides ,what are the existing issues and why are they existing. I don’t know when did this started but he started using this knowledge against me. He created a rift between me and Anjali so deep that cant be parted. He on other hand was getting close to Anjali. How can I say that ? hmm every time me and Anjali had a call. She always used to say Varun is more sensitive , caring , and I thinks knows me better than you do. He took advantage of the knowledge and slowly but gradually kicks me out of the scene. After every discussion that I had with Varun, he came up with this statement ‘if u can’t keep her happy let her go’. But as I said I am stupid, I never found out the meaning of these words, as they also came with these lines ‘ you know, I am the culprit for the sufferings that both of you are going through, coz I one who pushed guys together’. Awwww that line was so cheesy. ( all I can think with cheese is , Domino’s Cheese burst pizza. Opppssss!! Sorry very sentimental scene is going on here)
Meri Panipat ki akhiri ladai February’2011. I had a very harsh conversation with Anjali. The issue this time was her series of highly stupid and unappreciated activities, which also involved certain activities that no boy friend in the world would like. I asked her did she appreciated what she did , she replied who the hell am I to ask that question. She crossed the line this time. Those words had blown my mind. She dropped me a message reading “It is over between me and you, good bye”. That was the topping on the cake. First, I was damm angry and now I am damm irritated with her response. She wanted to leave she can, I don’t care. Wait a minute I care a lot. Every time , anything of this sort used to happen , I immediately used to switch my mode to DEFENSE. I used to call her back and sort out the issues. Like , every lazy donkey in love does. But this time water was above head level. I had decided that I wont call her back, she left me and she needs to step back. I had informed Varun about my decision, completely unaware of that fact he already knew it , thanks to his little sparrow.( he is not talking about Captain Jack Sparrow here ) Well , the time was perfect, Varun knew time was not good at all for my relation. so he played his game. On one hand Varun was a peace maker, well very cleverly on other hand pushed the idea of getting over the relation in our mind.
Time to finish off the job. Well Varun very cleverly kept me away from the proceedings, he knew , I am very angry and I wont take the initiative this time. He started placing his cards. He told me not to worry and he will take care of her, and wont let her go on wrong path. As I told u I was stupid that I even bought this. Varun kept me bouncing with the gyan , “pyar vyar kuch nahi hota… kuch log chahkar bhi sath nahi reh pate.. jane de use … tum dono k liye yahi achcha h”(love doesnot exist and some however hard they try still cant be together. Let her go , its good for both of you )On other , hand he became the shoulder for Anjali to cry on. Varun increased the frequency of everything between him and Anjali. And he pulled Anjali out of her dramatic breakup but on his side. Now you tell me isn’t that Bond or Bourne stuff. Such a clean fishing. ( what was the last line for ?? will he be giving Hollywood context now ? )


September 2009 Behakane k liye Mehkhane jane padta h,aur agar khud mehkhana aapke pas aa jaye to kya kahenge ( to get drunk u need to go to a bar but what if a bar comes to you) Oooohhh ooo wait. Story is not over yet reader. There is one more angle. Well , the angle says I am not only dumb and stupid but I also don’t go through details. I told you my friend Varun had his break up too. He was not quit able to take it, he did very crazy stuff. He brought a lot of embarrassment to Avantika, his family and himself. That time I consoled him , pacified him. I stood with him through all his bad time. I gave whatever I had and I could to bring him out of his misery. Well, then as I told u I am stupid, I did what I should not have done ever. I was away in training. Varun used to talk to me and he also used to talk to Anjali to put out all his frustration and empty his head. One fine day, Anjali calls me and asks that will I mind if she gives more attention to Varun , spends more time with him , just as a friend , to make him feel better , to bring him out of this terrible situation. I was really amazed at the maturity of my love and her understanding. I said that will be great. I told her that you will be helping me by helping my friend. Boy oo boy , what was wrong with me , what did I just do. Fish!!
Kuch log paer pe kulhadi marte h , mene paer kulhadi pe de mara ( some woodcutters accidently throw axe on their feet but some do it with a purpose without considering the outcomes) They started talking, chatting , meeting . I could significantly see changes coming in Varun. He was getting normal and Anjali has done wonders for me by doing this. But really ??? They started meeting , had late night calls and messages were exchanges. well these calls and messages never happened to me though considering the late night factor . They started hiding stuff from me, they lied to me that they were talking or together. And slowly and slowly there was a special place for Varun in Anjali’s heart. I was already drifting out of the picture. And I , never figured this out, slowly and eventually Varun came over his break up and started hooking up his new girl.

Ab Varun karta h Sacch ka Samna 8 months later. I went home for celebrating Diwali. I had made plans for class reunions. Reunions went great. After the reunion , as usual me and Varun went for a drink. His phone kept on buzzing every minute with someone’s messages. Well I don’t have a habit of sneaking into other’s phone. As Varun was driving the car , I held his phone. Now the phone rings and name that appears is very familier to us. It was Anjali. Varun quickly grabbed the phone and hung up. He sent her a message “I am with ur ex”, to which he got a response “ok , enjoy”. I don’t know why did he showed me those two messages. May be he was trying to avoid the tough question from me. I didn’t had issues with these call and messages, its their life and I know they are friends. Varun parked his car in front of 1911 bar. I got off the car and started walking towards the bar. When I turned around I found Varun was busy on the phone and looked very involved. I don’t know what happened then , some lightening struck on me or some one opened my eyes. I started quizzing the incidents that happened over in past. I did put questioned myself and put in reasons for the same. I was not ready to believe that Varun and Anjali are going out. I always thought that the way I have maintained the dignity so far same way Anjali will to maintain her dignity and won’t put me or herself into embarrassing situations. I was not ready to believe that Varun could do this, I respected him above all I trusted him so much. I hated myself for even thinking this way. I tried to get over it, but it was too strong notion. I gathered all my courage together and threw my friendship at stake. One fine day I decided that I should ask this question straight to Varun. I wrote a mail to Varun and demanded that I have a right to know the truth between him and Anjali .He didn’t replied to me for a week. And on one fine Sunday night he called me.He confronted to front of me that ‘yes , we are more than just very good friends. I always wanted someone who understands me very well, who knows me better than me and yeah she does. And she always wanted someone who gives her importance and cares for her too much. Sorry, but you were never that person’. I remember he used to say this all the time, ‘ I will make Anjali my girlfriend someday, she is too sweet’. I thought it was joke, but man he did it. He always meant it. My friend , I trusted u more than myself, I looked at you as someone who could help me just to help me. Wow man , what a way to help. Thanks for stabbing me in back, thanks for the pain.

Today , I am alone, still figuring out what just happened back then . They are together, in so called more than just very good friends relation. I have isolated myself from them and from everyone else in this world. I don’t know whether I will be able to trust and love anyone now. I don’t even know will I have anymore friends. I even don’t know that will people be around me or not. Sometimes I just wonder was there any relation that existed ever involving me? I know its human to develop feelings for someone , but is it ethical in bro code to date your so called best friend’s gal, or is it right to start feeling for your lover’s friend who seems to miserable? Is right to ditch? Is it right to be unfaithful? Can emotions ever cover up for the sins? . or is it just that this world is negative and so are the people.
THE END
(abbe ye koi Ekta kapoor ka daily soap thodi na h jo chalta hi jayega , ab paani pio aur so jao , kahani khatam ho gai)
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Anshul Mathur

Soch h ???

requirement h aadi kyu, testing hui h bhaari kyu
defects choot jate h kyu.
client kyu h roothte, project kyu h lootte
excalation hota h kyu
socha h , ye tumne kya kabhi socha h, socha h
socha nahi to socho abhi...

data flow dikhai nahi deta,aur procedures error h dete
socha h kya kabhi hota h ye kyu

boss ko h garmi kyu,weekend bhi me kaam karu
status mail mein kya me bheju
planning h hoti kya,wsr mein h jata kya
audit hoti h kyu
socha h, ye tumne kya kabhi socha h,socha nahi to socho abhi

overtime kyu dikhai nai deta,incentives diye nahi jate
compoff milte nahi socha h ye kyu.....

requirement h aadi kyu, testing hui........
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Indians and All well that ends well

well guys , this time I have no complains to Government or the Policy makers but I am seriously disgusted with closed Indian mentality that is not ready to accept truth.

I watched movies where a robber turns into a saint, and he is readily forgiven for all his robberies. I read few books where a over ambitious person do a lot of devilish stuff and still escapes the punishment.

I don't understand the need to keep Ajmal Kasab alive till today and investmenting heavily in keeping him alive. Why do Govt has to use our hard earned cash to keep alive a cockroach like Kasab. Well , not deviating from the topic much, I tried figuring out why can't we give up our notion of All Well that Ends Well. Even SRK was able to make a successful movie just out of this notion.

I recently read a book "If God was a Banker". First of all there was nothing referring to God, except for God being remembered on two lines in the entire book. Damm! What a bad relevance of the topic to content. There a guy in the book who is over ambitious and one who cannot accept failure. This guy is so egoist that he cant even tolerate any one turning him down. He is sinful and devil, he can go to any extent to full fill his own desires. He has no emotions , he forces women around him to be in relationship with him, betray their spouses. At a time this guy can handle 6 7 women. He either asks directly to these women for satisfying him or made the situations where they fall prey to him. He is a fraud, makes millions of USD through illegal means , giving benefits to all those who could satisfy his crouch or his account.

Now , its the judgement time. He is asked to testify for all the charges. He is being interrogated and big people in the organisation are willing to take it to media and fire him. Everything is going on well, he is about to pay for his sins. But wait for a sec, the writer thought how will this book sell if nothing ends well. Shit, this writer screwed it all. He made a climax where this guy is forgiven for all his sins. His family accepts him, society accepts him.

WTF, if this is true, why cant you accept people like kasab , dawood. You cant accept them coz you feel that what they have done is not right. when you believe in Karma, why cant you express yourself in books, in media and novels. Why do writers , story tellers have to stick with All well thing. Media please write what is true and not bluff around. What people read is directly effecting the way they think. Your All well notion is somewhere making them think that they can chose wrong ways and still escape. It is very evident from the current situation of the country. Please narrate the right thing even though it comes a hard way. Make people learn , they have to pay for their sins in a very hard way.

A fear of payback can help avoid people from committing sins. Work on making this world a better place to live in.


JAI HO

Relation kya h ???

Relation kya h ? uttar relation ek defect h

Relation ek defect ki tarah h , kal bhi tha , aaj bhi h , kal bhi rahega
Parth tum relation k moh mein naa pado , ye relation wo defect h jo kabhi functional , kabhi cosmetic ,To kabhi regression k roop dharan kar k tumhare samne aata h

Relation bhi defect ki tarah tumhare samne hokar bhi tumhari najro se chupa rahega. Tum kitni bhi koshish kar lo, tum ise nahi pehchaan sakte. Par jaise ki UAT/BAT user , client unn defects ko pakadte h , waise hi relation ko bhi tumhare office wale, padosi hi pehchaanenge aur chugli karenge.

Relation bhi defect ki tarah door se dikhai deta h, par jab tum uske pas jate ho , to jaise defect ko descope ya enhancement batakar deferred kar diya jata h, usi prakar tumhe bhi ek normal friend bolkar bhaga diya jayega.

Jaise defect apne life cycle mein anek roop leta h , jaise new defect , approved, resolved, closed, theek usi prakar relation bhi crush se shuru hota h, fir msg chat pe jata h, fir late night call, first date se hota hua break up tak, kabhi kabhi relation break up pe nahi jata wo shaadi pe chala jata h, jaise ki defect agle release mein functionality bann jata h . par aam taur pe relation defect ki tarah hi crush se shuru hokar break up pe ata h , jaise defect new se closed banta h

Defect ki tarah hi relation bhi aapko naa naa prakar k follow up karna sikhata h. defect k liye aap dev se follow up karte ho, analyst se follow up karte ho, usi prakar relation mein aap kuch bhool gaye to manane k liye follow up, unhe kuch chahiye to uska follow up, raat mein aapne baat nahi ki to uska follow up.

Jaise defect k andar dev walo ka manager aur QA walo k manager hote h jo bigarti hui baat sambhalte h, theek usi prakar relation mein bhi 2 best friends hote h jo aapko har samasya se nikaalne k liye velle baithe rehte h

Jaise defect k raise hote hi , poori team use resolve karne mein lag jati , chahe wo kisi k bhi against raised ho , theek usi prakar relation chahe shuru hua ho ya khatam hua ho, poori dunia relation k bare mein gossip karne mein lag jati h

Jis prakar hum ek release khatam hone k baad uss release mein aaye defects ka client k sath causal analysis karte h , theek usi prakar hum ek relation over hone k baad samne wale se baith k discuss karte h ki galti kaha aur kisse hui. Aksar aise cases mein samne wala causal analysis k baad bhi vendor change nahi karta, par agar release bade level pe fail hua to client project cheen leta h , usi prakar agar aap adiyal rahe to samne wala aapko laat maar k bhaga deta h.
kabhi kabhi ye itna bhayanak drashya ho sakta h ki , vendor ko ramp down karna padta h, theek usi prakar relation mein aapko kai prakar ki shopping , daaru , senti song ka sahara lena padta h.

Jeevan nirantar h , ye kaal samay ka chakra kabhi kisi k liye nahi rukta. Jaise ek release khatam hone k baad aap poorane defects ko bhool jate ho , theek usi prakar ek relation k baad dosre mein aap porane vyakti ko yaad nahi karte ho.


JAI HO JAI HO

Code Of Conduct for break up

On one fine evening , I was relaxing on my bed watching movie. There was a nice breeze that day, cool air passing through my hairs. That was such an amazing feel. I felt lighter and content. But wait a second what am I writing , this post is supposed to be about break up thing. How can it be so smooth? Awww… bad really bad on my part , sorry mislead you people.
Well , yeah this blog is supposed to be about my break up thing. Please man now I am trying to get into the mood of heart break kid and you are on to literal meaning. My body is not disintegrating, its about break up from my relationship. Where is my glycerin man , I need to make the ambience like that. Please note this is for the readers , now I am crying , so whatever I am writing should be taken seriously :P.
Ok, so on that fine evening , which I described above. When I was about to attain nirvana , my cell phone beeped and I donno some invisible hand pulled me back into this world. I was back with a BANg, though this sound was made piece of my heart my X10 mini fell on the floor. What next I read on the screen was breath stopping like I just got a paralysis attack and everything went numb. From the blues of sky some alien has done something in my phone, the message was from my gal and it read ‘I am not in a relationship with you anymore’. Hmm , that is a mistake definitely a mistake , some one else’s message got delivered to me with her name. I know she will call in night and we’ll talk about everything under the sky.
1 hour passed, 2 hours, when these hours became days , I have no idea. Man this is serious , there was no alien who did that, it was her and she was damm ! serious . I am into shit now deep shit!!.so I decided like every time to pick up my phone and call her sort out the things, but then due to some data processing in my head I did nothing. So this was a stupid story of my break up. But what is to be mentioned here is, I donno how to react , I donno what to say and do as I am going through my break up. AAwwwww … I have watched so many bollywood movies , but they are of no help. Someone said you should listen to sad songs and cry , listening part was ok but man I couldn’t cry as I don’t feel anything. Now this is serious , I should cry coz that is the code of conduct of break up. Well that is the teasing part I am not sad , I am not crying , I am doing no crazy stuff. But , this is not the way ideally people after breakup do. Rather I am feeling awesome , I enjoyed loads of movie and I am feeling awesome. I am clueless why am I feeling so. Any ways the next post will be more of gossips and images that attract you in all corners .